Wednesday, July 29, 2009
The longer i stay here...
the more stressful i get.. :(
save me :(
skip this 12 workin day..
i thought imma duracell. :(
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4:06 PM
Just had a 2 hour long lunch....
This time ruond, the lunch company was pretty good.
As compared to ytd. which i thought that i lost ALL my appetite with seeing Y and SA.
-.-"
okay. So much food for thought today.......
The adult world = The real world = Its better to close one eye , given certain situation, shutting both eyes wil be even better...
:(
:(
:(
I dont wanna get married.
Its not easy to climb, its not even easy to be a woman. Its not easy to stay in a marriage.
:(
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Monday, July 27, 2009
Counting down to the last day of work.
I cant wait to end this.
15 more day
i think the 3 mths "internship" has bring me thru many many things.
So much that, i think its enough as of now.
Just wanna go back to school life now......
So many things to look forward to, ya know?
anyway.. i've made up my mind.
it was indeed really short and sweet..
Thanks for including me into all ur plans, be it now or future...
But i really, really cldnt visioned myself in them, with u.
i'm sorry.I rather not waste ur time & effort than to realise at the end of the day,
We still wont work out.
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Hi! im blogging at work again....... * chuckle*
okay lets get started.
Till date, the story bout me n the HSL ( ham sap lor).
Guess that u've heard of the funny things he did. As in. I was warned by this friend J suddenly against him. N being a stupid girl. i told this lady Y. to be careful of him. I know i shld nt even try to be nice. But. it was plain dumb la seriously.
Unexpectedly, despite the late night that day, Y went on to call up this HSL. n tell him the story!!! Well done and overcooked.
So next morning, HSL came n confront me n stuffs. THanks.
Then, HSL started saying all the funniest things a man at prolly near 40 can say.
ok ok. im gg into the point now.
So lately, i been seeing the guys in my co, is like they like to surround ard lady Y.
i dun get it at all.
Apart from being the asian scholar maebe 8 yrs back, and being v thin n walks so str8 like model.
She doesnt have the looks, the figure, the job position also norm. And i dont admire that kinda way she talks and action.
Not very Shu Nu kind leh!!
Then i really dont get it why~~
There be this married man who always talk to her times at work. HSL likes talkin to her as well. Basically. like quite not bad leh! I cannot figure out why!! hmmmm * wriggle eyebrows*
Similarly, thru this HSL n my incident, i really feel that im not that ready for ofc gossips and politics. Esp when such bitchy Y come into my workin life. :(
Anyway......
I dont know what is going on inside me.
I think working life has slowly changed me to a more materialistic girl.
Yes monetary terms.
Apart from that, G is kinda like full time bf.. Like, anytime anywhere, my call.
I used to think why JJ dont care bout so many things bout me. And as much as i know, i hated that. I hated the idea that he does not want pple to know he's attached, he wanted more, he wld love to make more friends ( girls as well). Oh ya. interuppting. He just confessed to me as well. That actually part of him didnt want to just get "tied" down by gf. Always ready to explore into more opportunities. I feel kinda sad the moment i knew. I mean. all along i knew bout that, but i've never voiced it out. Even if i did, i get only denials and being too possessive or wad not...
And that night, i slept with a heavy heart... Very heavy.
i knew this kinda attitude suck. and it just boils down to one reason. Young. and not "ready" enough. While at that time.. im really really really ready for him. Putting him in the centre of my attn, one of my priority in life. Even till now, i feel kinda zzz.
So what ? i knew we shld nv turn back again.
Cos, we will still come to this end of the road.
Till date, G has been rather nice to me.
Tho' i live in the west, while he live in central, never had he not offered to pick me up from places. Even when im not with him... Ya. maebe this is just the starting :) And theres once. The same day JJ told me bout the stuffs which i really felt upset over... I went out to meet the girls. And i didnt text him when im home. Cos i rejected his offer to pick me up sending me hom..
So, he waited till 1am. n got all worried for my safety... I know this shld the "proper" case. But, from what i cld remember, JJ has nv "cared". Whether im home or not...
Sigh..
And now, G is away from Sin. He passed his car to my care. To drive the car to work and home so i can have more time to slp.. n his cashcard which he just tops up.
N gonna go shopping with him soon as well. Im not quite use to this concept as well.....
Everytime when im near G, i really feel loved n comfy. Applies to the phone calls as well. I feel that he has got really nice loving voice towards me, YES i can sense that.. But.
Once we're independent. i didnt really look forward to the outing......
I guess things changed alil when mom again, went to draw some lots.
Exactly what she did when im with JJ....
sigh.
sigh. Alot of emotions involved eh?
I know things will be better.
Anyway. JJ has jus came online.
No, we arent talking. Guess, he's talkin to his eye candy as well... :)
I know i've said many times. But yes. Give me time.
1 mth just passed.......
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